A good day

I guess today is a good day. The sun is shining and I'm optimistic about our next adventure. I'm excited to be a part of a new neighborhood, to find the quirks in a new city and discover our favorite, kid and dog friendly places. Don't worry I'm scared of driving across the country with a toddler, I'm scared of multiple flights home, of not meeting people I like or not wanting to leave the house in the winter and becoming depressed. But today I will try not to think of those things and will look forward to new farmers markets and CSAs, new bike paths and areas to hike, new happy hour spots.

Planning

I like it. I do it a lot, most of the time without knowing or being deliberate. I think about what nap time will be like in the summer even though I can't predict Violet or her schedule. I think about work this summer and how it will be a little different than last summer. But I don't know where to start with next summer or even the fall. I can't picture where we will live, our neighborhood, what full days with Violet for a full week will be like. I try to imagine, I try to put together a puzzle I don't have pieces for.

A little sentimental

I can be a little sentimental. I'm still attached to my car that we sold a week ago, I'm struggling with renting out our house again (first tour tonight), But lately it's my job and my career that I don't know how to deal with. Don't get me wrong I'm very grateful that I will get to be a stay-at-home mom, but I'm sad to leave a profession I love and scared I may not be able to return to it. Watch out, when my hair turns colors I may have a real melt down.